Cartwheel to Safety

Things I Want

Thu, 21 Feb 2008 05:13:13 GMT

Randomness

Thu, 21 Feb 2008 04:52:57 GMT

It's been awhile I know..I haven't been on this for soo long and I've decided to go ahead and leap in again.

I turned 25 on the 7th of Feb and to be quite honest with you, I felt older. For the first time in my life, a birthday has actually made me feel my current age immediately. This is most definitely a good thing. I feel mature and ready to take on the world. I feel the remnants of that insecure younger girl/woman fading away. I like it. I feel good.

I'm taking that leap back in to grad school. This is one aspect I'm nervous about considering my major is not necessarily set in stone. The obvious choice to most would be somthing related to computers but I'm seriously considering a business related curiculum.

I got to ring in 2008 with 2 of my best friends in Honolulu, Hawaii. I fall more and more in love with the island everytime I go back. I've been 5 times now and I never get tired of it. We spent 2 weeks out there and it was one of the best times of my life. From hanging on the beach watching the waves crashing to shopping in the Marketplace. Good times, good place and good people.

Someone who walks in, when the whole worlds walks out
-definition of a Friend

Getting older means taking better care of oneself, both mentally and physically.

Mentally, I've surrounded myself with people who genuinely care about me and want to see me succeed. I've got friends that I talk to every day. I've got friends that I talk to a few times a month. The point is that we talk and I know that I can count on them and vice versa. With all the bullshit one has to deal with on a daily basis, you have GOT to have that support system.

Physically, I'm an avid fan of the gym. Nuff said.

Much Love,
Mika

update

Thu, 11 Jan 2007 01:04:21 GMT

I got a brand new iPod for Christmas!! It's a black 80 gb. John also got an inscription on the back! I love it!! I absolutely love it!! I've been loading it with all kinds of things.

Sooo...I've got the cell phone I want and the ipod. I'm totally psyched about them.

I've managed to pay off all but 1 credit card

Left are:
1 credit card ($1823)
Transmission ($2030)
Once I pay these 2 off, I'll be in such a better place mentally..$3,853..not too bad.

Sun, 27 Aug 2006 00:13:24 GMT

I finally got my phone!! I got a black one bc I didn't like the pink one and the silver looks like it shows scratches easily. I'm not soo worried about getting the new ipod of the MAC for the time being.

Sat, 19 Aug 2006 20:34:54 GMT

Things I REALLY want:

Sun, 04 Jun 2006 04:30:03 GMT

Time for an update!! I got a new job that is seriously like 20 minutes away from home. I'm going to be a help desk professional. I'm soo happy considering I landed a job right out of college (graduated 3.13.06) in my field. I'm getting the pay I was getting in Columbia plus tons of other great benefits. I start next week. I hope I'll like it.

John and I are doing great and still going strong. I love my babe!

I definitely feel more grown-up since I graduated. It's like this huge weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. Sooo glad to be done.

Fri, 27 Jan 2006 01:39:16 GMT

It seems as if my life is spinning out of control. His mother is having a breakdown and I've barely seen him since the night it happened about a week ago. It feels like I've lost my best friend. I'm trying to be understanding but it feels like this is never going to end. My style of living is no longer in existence. I don't know how much more of this I can take. I feel selfish but aren't I allowed to?? Aren't I allowed to want my life back?? My destination is unknown. I hope we make it through this. I hope with all my heart. I know what he's going through and I can't even be there for him because of her situation. No one can be around him. So I wait and continue waiting. This is the first day I've got w/o a kiss from him in over a year. I'm trying to be understanding, trying to be patient.

Tue, 13 Dec 2005 02:13:24 GMT

Why the fuck do I have to drive into downtown Baltimore tomorrow morning?? I'm pretty pissed about having to go but its work related so my hands are tied. I'm going to a litigation tomorrow and out to lunch with some lawyers so it might not be too bad of a day.

I got 2 finals done yesterday and have my last one on Sunday then I'll be done...hopefully. My face is breaking out again which means its time for a visit to my dr. As soon as I get a chance I'm leaving early or going in late so that I can go. I've been putting it off for like 2 months!

Tue, 06 Dec 2005 12:06:31 GMT

Life has been pretty good. I've gotten accustomed to my new job and the paychecks :). The drive is still a bit more than I wanted but its not soo bad as long as I've got some good music and my cell to keep me company. Work is extremely busy. So busy in fact, for awhile I was bringing work home with me in order to keep up. I'm pretty sure that phase is over now that I've gotten more used to how to get the work done.

One of the best perks about my job is that it is next to a really big mall with really awesome stores. It's such a temptation but I am controlling myself very well.

I've developed a plan to pay off 2 of my credit cards by April 2006. Once I do that I'll be that much more comfortable with moving out when I'm ready. I got this really good book on how to deal with finances from Borders and its awesome. I really want to be on top of my finances so that's one of my main focuses right now. I could totally go out and spend alot of money on material posessions right now but I'd rather do that later and pay my bills off now.

I can't even believe their aren't more closings this morning. I'm about to go to work but I'm leaving early. There's no way I'm getting stuck on dark, icy roads tonight. The roads don't look too bad though. Wish me luck.

Tue, 18 Oct 2005 00:54:00 GMT

I should throw a get together this weekend.

Tue, 18 Oct 2005 00:53:15 GMT

YAY!! I got my new computer. It's soo awesome and big! John and I spent Saturday night drinking and watching movies and doing other things ; ). It was a grand jolly ole' time. Green Apple Twists by Smirnoff of the best...well only second to Corona w/lime.

I have been soo friggin' lazy concerning my school work. Turning things in at the last minute is not going to help me when finals come around. I still haven't bought a single txt book for any of my classes. I'm gonna have to do that this week sometime and get crackin' eh?

My car is acting up yet again. I think it may be my breaks. The people that usually work on my car want somthing like $800 bucks to fix it. There has got to be a cheaper option. If there is one, I'll find it.

Work is going pretty well. I tend to get very frustrated somtimes. I also tend to get paranoid about things because its a completely different enviroment than what I'm used to working in. So far so good though. I'm still doing job searches though. I'm hoping to get somthing in my field once I finish my degree in December.

I'm slowly but surely paying off my bills. I should be good by the end of december...with most of them at least.

Sun, 09 Oct 2005 18:57:48 GMT

Once again, I have started a new job. One I actually wanted. I’ve been working in Columbia for 3 whole weeks now. My job is paying me a lot of money, so much that I can afford to move out on my own into a nice place with my baby.

Me, John, Alex, D.J. Joanne, Janet, Thu, and her husband all met up at Chevy’s last night for some drinks and food. I had the best time! I hadn’t seen all of them together in months. We spent a good ½ taking pics both in the restaurant and outside. Thu and I found out we have a class together on Sundays so that is gonna be awesome!

Alex, John, and Me all went back to Joanne’s place after Chevy’s to continue drinking. We stopped and brought more booze before we headed to Silver Spring and John got me Green Apple Smirnoff Ice. Soo Good!! Sooo Gooooood!!!

Sat, 27 Aug 2005 21:37:30 GMT

Ok, in the past month, I have started not one, but 3 new jobs. First was the lawyers office. I hated this place and was totally underpaid for all the work they gave me. Second was Staples. This job was not that bad actually. At least it wasn't until I told them I was leaving because I got a job with a middle school. At that point, one person in particular started giving me a hard time. This was due to the fact that I was supposed to replace him in a few months. I felt kinda bad for him, ecspecially after he started whining about how he didn't want to be there on my last day. But the school pays more money and I believe that I will like it alot better.

I'm not feeling too good today. I started getting sick last night. John stayed up with me to take care of me ;). He even cancelled his plans tonight to stay in with me. How sweet is that?? I'm feeling a bit better already though. I need some soup and grilled cheese.

Sat, 30 Jul 2005 02:53:12 GMT

On Wednesday, I got a call offering me a job at the law firm I had interviewed for and got turned down bc they were concerned about my graduation in December and me leaving the company. Deciding that this was one of the best offers to come my way, I accepted it and started that Thursday. My first day was very trying bc all I did was train. Today I was pretty much on my own. I had almost no idea about what I was doing but I'm catching on pretty quickly.

My supervisor from the computer lab really gave me some crappy hours for the fall semester. She was going to have me drive an hour up there to work for 4 hours during the week then she wanted me to work all day Sat. and Sunday. No fucking way!! I ended up quitting bc I got tired of the whole work study fiasco and decided I needed somthing more stable not to mention benefits so I quit when I got the new job. Although it was time for me to leave, I'm really going to miss working there. Some of the students and my co-workers were totally awesome.

My baby got a job too on Thursday. He didn't think he was going to get it bc they took soo long to call him back but they did and he's ecstatic. I'm ecstatic. I'm soo proud of us.

Everyone is getting new jobs and its a wonderful thing. Although I kinda like my new job, that doesn't mean I'm not going to keep applying for other jobs. It would be crazy of me not to. I'm just soo darn tired now. Working soo much does that to you I suppose.

Sun, 17 Jul 2005 05:19:54 GMT

Courtney called me a few days ago after not calling for a month to let me know that she is 2 1/2 months preggers!! I don't know what to think. I'm happy for her but at the same time very worried. Whenever I bring baby talk up, she gets mad and doesn't want to talk about it. Not bringing it up anymore may be a good thing.

While taking one of our late night trips to Wal-Mart, John and I ran into a girl I used to go to high school with. We weren't exactly friends but we did speake quite a bit. She kept asking about my life and how I was doing. When I told her I was about to finish college, she jumped on me about whether or not I had gotten any job offers yet. Now, I'm not sure if she was asking because she thought I hadn't and wanted to gloat or if she just wanted to know. After telling her that I had indeed gotten job offers that were either too far away or didn't offer as much money as I thought I was worth, she shut up.Hehehehe.

John cooked us cheese fries and picked up some chicken for dinner tonight. All I can say is YUMMY!!! I love him sooo much! Not just because he cooks for me but because he really is an awesome boyfriend. The fact that he cooks for me is just a fringe benefit ;)

I plan on having lunch with Shauny tomorrow so we'll have time to catch up on what's going on in our lives.

The lady I interviewed with a few days hasn't called me back yet. She had called alot of my references thought. I'm gonna give her a call monday if I don't hear from her by 2. It'd be nice if I did in fact get it. Its soo close to home and they offer really nice benefits. Although the pay may not be as much as I want, it'll suffice until I finish school in December, then as soon as I land a new job with my new degree, I'm sooo outta there!!

We're about to watch I,Robot on In Demand and hopefully make more cheese fries. I hope this movie doesn't suck.

Sat, 09 Jul 2005 00:27:27 GMT

Yesterday, I got out the emery board, nail polish remover, and nail clippers and gave myself a pedi and mani. Lord knows I needed it. My feet were looking really dry and had polish on that was at least 3 weeks old. Not a good look. All is well now.

The breaks on my car are going bad so now I've got to get them replaced tomorrow morning. *bleh*

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 19:26:00 GMT

I ended up meeting John at Matt and Jamie's on Saturday night for an early 4th of July BBQ and fireworks display. After 2 shots and 2 beer bongs it was off to the hot tub after a 15 minute discussin with Paul about his loss of faith in the Catholic religion. The tub wasn't as warm as I would have liked but at least I had on a bathing suit I really liked. Jamie had tons of them stored away for guests. I ended up getting this really awesome orange and red bikini. Thankfully, she also had shorts that fit me bc I was not trying to show everyone my ass.

After some interesting convo, Jamie decided it would be a good idea for all of us to jump into their in ground pool. I was all up for it until I felt how cold the water was. So there I was testing the temp with my foot, when someone throws me in from behind...into the deep end. Might have been quite funny if I knew how to swim. As I was sinking into the 7ft of water, I became quite pissed. I wasn't planning on getting my hair wet. John came out just as I was coming up. When he found out what had happened, he got pretty pissed at Paul. Paul ended up apologizing and all was well again.

Wed, 29 Jun 2005 19:35:41 GMT

Hilarity

http://collegehumor.com/?image_id=159469

Wed, 22 Jun 2005 21:57:44 GMT

Things between me and someone else seems like they've been strained over the past week. Random arguments seem to be happening a lot more frequently than before. I'm very confused over some of the stuff that's been going down. Six months ago, I would have been extremely stressed over somthing like this but now I find myself just rolling with it. I'm not sure how things are going to turn out. Some things that I found completely normal to be doing are going to have to change.

Job prospects are not looking good right now. Nothing decent is coming my way. Its all bullshit!!! Some of my other friend don't even have college degrees and are working pretty decent jobs, while I slave away with 9 credits left until I am a college graduate and can't even land a decent position. It makes me soooo fucking MADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDd!!!!!!

Don't get me wrong. I'm completly happy for my friends that were able to land jobs with just a high school diploma. Makes me think that college is just a bunch of bullshit.

I'm just frustrated with a job search that is going nowhere. I'm frustrated with some aspects of the way my life is going. I was even contemplating joining the navy just for a change. Drastic. I know. I don't think I was serious about it. I know that eventually, I will find a job and it will be awesome. I will be able to pay off all of my debt and get my own place.

Patience is a virtue and I am very virtuous. At least I'm trying to be.

On a different note, the following picture amused me to no end this evening...enjoy!!

Mon, 20 Jun 2005 05:57:50 GMT

After picking a Joanne up from Greenbelt, we all headed out to the the bar on Saturday night. It was absolutely fantastic! It was a little outside bar but it was soo cute. I had my first ever Mai Tai and Margarita and let me tell you...those things are hella strong!! Also had to get my shot of kamikazi in for the night. We all spent alot of time hanging out on on the docks and talking, especially Joanne and I. All kinds of interesting topics were brought up for discussion.

It was really nice spending time with John and his friends. I got soo unbelievably intoxicated on my drinks.

Fri, 17 Jun 2005 23:42:18 GMT

I've been relentless in my search for a new job. I keep getting offers but they are wayyy too far away and the hours are crappy. Plus, they are things that I really don't want to do. I had an interview in Herndon today and got offered a temp position in McClean. It's only for 3 weeks so I turned it down. The guy that is finding jobs for me wants me to call him back on Monday for any new positions. He tells me that they get new positions everyday so hopefully he'll find me somthing soon.

I totally need to work in my certifications. I don't have a single one but that'll change by August. It'll definitely increase my chances of obtaining a position that I want.

Anyway, onto somthing not job related....John and I went to a fundraiser with his friend Eric in Bethesda last night. It was for a men's lacrosse team and the food was pretty decent. Especially my buffalo chicken sandwhich...;). YUM! At first I didn't like Eric becasue I've only talked to him on two occasions and he got on my nerves but he was pretty cool last night. He ordered calamari and shared it with all of us. Really chewy but still good. Kinda like shrimp.

Joanne and Alex were going to a club that night to get free salsa lessons and John and I ended up calling them to let them know we were going to join them. We stopped my Alex's first so we could wait for Joanne to finish eating. When we got to her place D.J. was there and we talked him into coming to the club with us.

We ended up paying too much money for drinks *clink* and playing a tag team game of pool. Not a bad not at all.

Thu, 02 Jun 2005 19:36:40 GMT

I need to learn how to calm the fuck down. I feel soo overwhelmed with everything that going on in my life right now. Things are going well but I think they could be going better. I need to sit down and eat somthing healthy for me. I'm was going to take the red line to d.c. but I think I'm gonna skip that and just go running instead.

Thu, 02 Jun 2005 18:06:26 GMT

For some reason, I'm in a weird kind of mood today. I got to work around noon and spent an hour learning how to ghost hard drives and do images. I was supposed to learn how to partition a hard drive for a server but my supervisor went to lunch so hopefully I'll get to do it later.

I feel like I'm in a bit of a rut right now. I've got an interview tomorrow and one next tuesday but for some reason, I'm not at all excited about them. I was going to ask John to come with me tomorrow so I don't get lost but I'm going to go alone. I've ridden the metro tons of times albeit never alone, but I'll be fine. I still have to find somthing nice to wear.

Since I got back from Hawaii, I have put on soo much weight. I've gained somthing like 12 pounds. I'm going to spend the next two weeks losing it plus a bit more. It is swimsuit season after all;).

I detest the job search system we have for UMUC. There is never anything on the damn thing!! UMD's is much better. I should have transferred. There is no way in hell I'd ever do another degree here. Somtimes, I really hate this school.

Alex got a new job working for UMD so he quit his job at the lab with us. I'm happy for him! I'm happy for everyone who finds a new job but I do miss working with him and Janet (aka Kiwi).

I have soo much to do today but can't seem to muster the energy to do anything.

Thu, 26 May 2005 03:25:29 GMT

I don't know what it is with some of the guys I know. I mean, I know they may have had a crush on me or somthing at one time or another but the fact that they want to be assholes because I'm not with them really pisses me off. Why can't they get it through their fucking brains that I am with John. He is the only one I want to be with and they need to stop hating because I'm not going anywhere. Argghh!! It ticks me off because it seems to me that in there heads, I should either be single or with them. I have my own fucking mind and I will be with whomever I want to be with.

Anyhoo, I just got back from work. It was my last night of having to close the lab and I am soo happy!! I was starting to hate closing that place up at 11p.m. I've been steadily applying for new jobs and have heard back from a few places that I might be interested in. I'm hoping somthing works out because I need more money and some actual benefits.

Becky and I had lunch on Sunday at Ruby's. I miss that girl when I don't see her for months on end. If I get this job in my locale, we'l have the same hours. Courtney got a job too so she's in the area now.

Mon, 23 May 2005 19:13:39 GMT

John, Jr, Penny, and I have been helping Russell move into his new place over the past couple of days. He actually moved into Trish's moms house. He fixed the basement up and it looks really nice. He has a nice sense of decoration that makes the place feel pretty cozy.

I went with John last night to visit a friend of his in Laurel. They had me playing God of War and I was pretty good at it. I kinda want to play it again. Thankfully, this friend wasn't an asshole and was really nice. John and I ended up sharing the couch and although it was a tight fit, we slept pretty comfortably. That was until the cat started freaking out and knocking stuff over around 5am.